to leave paradise, to find heaven
I’m in an indecisive situation right now
It just matters of hitting the button SEND
But I’ve been staring at the screen for more then 15 mins
And still no decision yet.
i ask myself, " is it worth it?".
is it worth it? i ask of you.
but this is a great opportunity
and its might not successful
but if i dont try , i will never know
I’ve been thinking about this for so long
Leaving the country is always the last thing on my mind
I thought about my family, my friends and him.
I cant bear to part with them.
What about the times we looked up at the stars?
What about the times we talked non stop till late at night?
What about the times we laughed so hard, we cried?
What about the times you offered your shoulder for me to cry on?
What about the times we fought over the PS2?
What about the times we went to play pool ?
Will I have all these if im so far away?
So I procrastinated the idea of sending out my CV all the way to Jakarta
Until today……
Im slowly flying into rage
I start to question the reason of staying
I wish things would be a little or less go my perfect way
Which I know , of coz it may not always will
It really hurts me today to witness the contradiction of the day
But it hurts more to see when there’s no one to exchange
Perceptions
No one to make attempt to learn about me and to
acknowledge my presence.
im so exhausted now.
i used up all my energy to click on the Send.
SENT SENT SENT SENT SENT
0_O
Well. Lets wait, baby.