hugs? (2)

hugs ? anyone ? i need one..............

hugs?

A hug for you .....

Sigh

i feel a tad sulky today.

sigh.

i wanted to hide under the blanket and feel sorry for myself.

My parents are absolutely and positively going to make me blow my mind.They do nothing but fight when they are together.

Seriously, in my 24 years as a daughther to them, i thought they were talking a lot.
But, in hindsight, they were just "getting by". And now, it dawned on me that i never heard them say anything like " they want to grow old together". Whereby , i think at this age : they should have grow old and spend the rest of their life together.

Dad was not the 'DAD' anymore. All i can say is "a man's blood soon runs cold when there is no one around to warm it up".

Okay, i have lamented enough - until i am so dehydrated , but calling myself a wretched fool, unfortunate, tormented, pitiful , deplorable human being isn't going to help me either. I have two choices; i must either commint suicide or try to rectify my life by helping to reconcile my parents back. That is the path i must take, for i cannot bring myself to face a broken family.

there is nothing more to say , except i love my mum and dad, i love my family, and i love life.

Oh i do, i really do.

i almost die (i thought) .....

last night

by gulping down a mouthful of Natural Citrus LISTERINE antiseptic mouthwash.

('_'!) no worries - im not committing suicide.

okay, i know it sounds so stupid. But i cant help it.

it's tasted like 'screwdriver' - (vodka + orange juice)

Heheh

This was my first time trying on this product. I always preferred Oral-B but then I was back at hometown and that’s the only mouthwash there.

Fairly, it was my fault too. I wasn’t concentrating.

My mind was outer the space when I was brushing my teeth and while gargling Listerine.

The taste somehow felt like alcohol - the stinging sensation and also the citrus flavor.

Gosh, it took me a few seconds to realize what I’ve done.

I ran down to the kitchen and drank lotsa water – thinking that it can wash down and dilute the chemical so that it will not irritate my stomach.

Phew, miraculously, I survived. I don’t feel anything. Not even stomachache.

Here I am , alive and blogging. Wooo hooo.....

Don't ever use Natural Citrus LISTERINE antiseptic mouthwash if you are an alcoholic.

Your taste buds will love the less intense blend of orange, grapefruit and lemon - and you tend to swallow it.

Like that it will not only kills germs that cause plague, gingivitis and bad breath - it will kill you too!

Big girls don't cry

im a big girl.

i don't cry.

T_T

Growing up

i was thinking.

its funny. When i was a kid, i thought grown-ups never worried about anything. I trusted my parents to take care of everything, and it never occurred to me that they might not know how. I figured that once you grew up, you automatically knew what to do in any given scenario. I am 25. I don't think I'd have been such a hurry to reach adulthood if I'd known the whole thing was going to be ad-libbed.

this is going to be a long night.