things burning out

sometimes
i've been damn semangat to blog

but then suddenly
im damn procrastinating to even to touch it.

DAMN

anyway,
i had a fantastic weekend,
my 24th birthday bash was superb!
and i got lotsa cool presents.

will update on that later ya
promise
*showing my little pinky*



right now, i just want to sleep
damn tired
i think its the blood donation
yah im a good samaritan
got a pack of bloody 400ml blood out of my body.
*faint*

today.....

Feelings - can you tell ?

ya i know i havent been blogging for awhile
i just realised that i'm so lazy to blog
maybe loads of you realised that long time ago
with the lack of my posts
been busy at work and when i come home,
my bed looks more interesting than my laptop

this blog is pretty much dead for now
it might be revived, if i have the time
i have my life to live, ya know.

hehe

the other day
a friend of mine was telling me that my blog
is meaningless and lack of 'feelings'
i was thinking :
'heck, its my blog - so none of your business '
if ya dont want to read, dont read la
its not like im forcing you to read
with a gun pointing at your head, right.

so, you want feelings?
Lets blog about feelings , then.

Feelings, for me
its always lies far beneath the surface,
never to be seen or even felt.
im not black-hearted or mean after all.
its just that i dont think im capable of
explaining hows my feeling all about.
i could not , in a thousand years, comprehend my feelings.

At this moment ,
im feeling so down in the dumps.
Things were like dirt tracks twisting through the jungle.
its muddy when the rain came,
and when its hot, its get so dusty ,
i could barely open my eyes.

my friends been telling me :
let bygones be bygones
but
i can't seem to tell myself that,
thus the feeling of guilt runs through
my mind all the time.

should i stop doing something that i know i might regret doing
or shall i give it a try and regret later?
shall i just let it be and do whatever i feel like doing
as no one knows whether what it will bring me.
i might not regret after all.

have you ever regret on doing something,
that when you looked back
you wish that you never have done it?

im feeling pretty excited as well
at the moment
as tomorrow is my birthday.
I wonder what will come for me.

btw, i already had a fantastic
advanced-birthday celebration
2 weeks ago.

haha

Will blog on that later.

Chagar Hutang - the best holiday!

Here's the long overdue Redang picture post!
Ladies and gentleman,
Girls and Boys ...........
i present to you .........
the Chagar Hutang, Pulau Redang .

Basically, its a one week program of
SEATRU - Sea Turtle Researc Unit of
KUSTEM - Kolej Universiti Sains & Teknologi Malaysia.
I , as a volunteer will be helping out in the research and conservation
of the sea turtles.

i can still remember every single detail of
that week just as clearly as if it were yesterday.
i can switch it on in my memory any time i like
and run it through in front of my eyes exactly
as though it were the reel of a cinema film ;
and it never varies.

The best holiday of the year


the journey begins at 2200 via Mutiara DAP3355


6 hours bus ride from KL, 3 hours wait at bus stop, 40 mins ride : finally reached SEATRU hse @ KUSTEM.


Met a bunch of fantastic people : L-R tongnee paynee me chiahuei josh desmond
and the camera girl kahwei


Upon arriving, greeted by the clear blue sky, white sand and crystal clear water.


and a place called home for a week : no electricity , no TV, no phone line, no air cond and most of all no computer and internet connection!!! (can i survive?)


..... sleeping place with natural air-conditioned.


Our first lunch together.... yummy .....


my favourite hammock.......


........ the view from the hammock.


1st night on-duty and its rained. Interesting , walking along the beach in raincoat, with thunder and lightning.


yes, there were days we saw the storm coming.......


after the storm .........


yeah , clear blue sky........


we are very hardworking


so dont kacau us can or not? we busy excavating the nest la....


see, turtle eggs ...


oohh...its coming out!


isnt it cute?


so cute so cute so cute so cute so cute so cute so cute


breakfast for the day .......



and there was a day i make..........


pancakes ..!!!!!!


after a hard day at work ........


we rushed back for yummy own-cooked lunch..........


and yummy dinner too............


this what we did during our free time


we went pancing sotong too.....


and some reading .......


or just laze around .......


and of course cam-whoring all the time .......


my favourite spot - the sotong rock.


our day-out to marine park


dropping by at berjaya for lunch.....


the director and the producer


the twins - mv covershoot


interesting n happy day out


a hike up the river....


where the hakka version of infernal affairs took place.^^


another hike to the turtle rocks


where we can see the crocodile rock (oh so many rocks)


took lotsa group photos.....


another one


and another one....


oh yes, another one ... way to go , slot U!


the girls....


not missing the opportunity to cam-whore...


the very last night on the island......


having the best time of my life....


so much food, so much fun


fun fun fun ~~


its time to go ......
surely will miss ......


sleeping on the beach (oh the start studded sky at night)


the cooking sessions.......


the foods


the breathtaking scenery ......


strolling along the beach at night


and most of all - the people .