restless + work = anger

sleepness night makes me so angry the whole day
every little thing goes wrong will send
my blood speedometer rise high to the max

sometimes i wish i can scold people properly

but then most of the times
i rather bottled up and never tell.
I think thats why nobody listen to me often.

sigh

sometimes i really wanted to hurt myself
dragging a pin up on your skin ;
seeing little bubbles of blood pop up and trickle -
it feels like letting out the big scream held inside,
the scream that sulking or throwing up couldnt show.

fortunately
i've managed to control the urge to self-harm.
the worst i did so far was biting myself.
people who harm themselves are often
misunderstood and treated with disgust.
i think the wound shows the horribleness inside them.

and i hadnt wanted to die.


On a brighter note ,

Lets watch fireworks at :


the curve Happy New Year 2007.

and


1Utama. Happy new year 2007!

Oh, here is the video clip of us singing christmas carol.
So wat ya think ?