oh the ups and downs of life. today i confessed, i don't know, can be so extremely hard & uncomfortable.
so today, though it hurts and i’m afraid, i choose to tell you , leaving the shame and familiarity of insanity behind me. i will not keep thinking the same things over and over and expect that somehow miraculously things will change. looking sane and as if i have it together is no longer good enough. i would like to only have to trust myself in theory, but life is pushing me to trust fate in practice. i would like to know what to expect before i take a step, but waiting has just left me in the same place all these years.
Friend, I dont know what it is you want me to do and I dont know how I’ll get to the place you want me to be. but surely standing in this same spot is not the answer.So once again, i will try to put one foot in front of the other - make changes.i will have to renew my mind, deliver me from my fears, and teach me that i can trust you.
so today, though it hurts and i’m afraid, i choose to tell you , leaving the shame and familiarity of insanity behind me. i will not keep thinking the same things over and over and expect that somehow miraculously things will change. looking sane and as if i have it together is no longer good enough. i would like to only have to trust myself in theory, but life is pushing me to trust fate in practice. i would like to know what to expect before i take a step, but waiting has just left me in the same place all these years.
Friend, I dont know what it is you want me to do and I dont know how I’ll get to the place you want me to be. but surely standing in this same spot is not the answer.So once again, i will try to put one foot in front of the other - make changes.i will have to renew my mind, deliver me from my fears, and teach me that i can trust you.
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