Life is like a roller coaster.

Human is the most contradicting creature in the whole world. We always live in denial. If you say no, then its obviously a lie. You lie to yourself and you dont even know it. I think thats because we , human, are the creatures that always emotionally challenge. We have feelings and thats what make us always contemplating in whatever we do - daily life, work, fun, etc. With so many choices around us, we do sometimes have to crack our head thinking what to have for breakfast.

This is what i hated most. Why cant we made our life much simpler? Breakfast, we only eat porridge. Lunch, rice. Dinner, noodles. Can we do that? No, i cant because i love Mcdonalds. Ha ha ha ........ Thats right - we have lotsa choices and we simply have to decide then.

Anyway, all i wanted to say is that i has finally decided to resign from my company. Well, its not a very hard decision but it has been giving me lotsa sleepless nights to think about this. I do not love my job, i hate what im doing. But i love the people there. Not all but mostly all are lovables. Me, being a people - peoples, i acted upon my feelings. If its last time, i can push the hatred (my job) away and try to love the workplace. But now is now. Im no longer the 'last time' me. I need to find myself - i need to be happy in whatever i do as thats what will keep me live as long as it goes. Come to think of it, with the super high technology right now - i will still be able to keep contact with all the lovables people i will be leaving behind in the company. Right? So why worries? =)

A tiny weeny rollercoaster picture to remind me of the ups and downs. Waheyyy ahead!

So bored and i wanna chew my head off!

So bloody bored. I've survived 2 days of facebooking and FMLing. No wonder i dont have the energy to go online at night. Usually i will just crashed with my work clothes on and then woke up shower and sleep again. And then i cant wake up in the morning. I wish someone could tell me whats wrong with my system, it seems gone haywired for a long time. Anyway, sleeping is the best - it make me forget things.

It's time .... since Bkk July 09

After going thru my accessories drawer last night, i think its time to hit the Bangkok market again for the superb accessories. I reckoned some of my favourite items are missing, i cant find it though i've turned my room upside down.

It was such a waste that i didnt have the energy to roam the street of Bangkok market last trip searching for cheap and nice accessories. Am damn much regrets now! For sure, if im given an energy boost, i will lugging back damn whole lots of chunky-chunks that will last me for a lifetime..... hmm..... maybe not.

I've been very restless from the time i boarded the airplane right here in KL. Thanks to the chaos in office and all the running around for stuffs i have to bring to bkk. Don't mention about packing because its very last minute and i wasting my time arranging nicely only to have to take out during check-in because of 'overweight'. Damn!

Right, since i ve already started, i cant seems to stop my fingers from typing - might as well blog down my trip to Bangkok last July. Here comes hell lots of pics. ^^

I arrived at noon and im already exhausted. Dragging my overweight luggage and fought my way thru the taxi queue, i ve finally arrived my destination. Im half excited and half nervous. Don't ask why the nervous, because i didnt know myself. I wanted give him a massive hug and a killer smile but i m too weak for that .... i m hungry ! Guess what was my first meal ? Haha ... yea of course - McDonalds Pork burger ^^

I spent my whole day at Siam Paragon, from 2.30 pm till 9.00 pm. Its freaking crazy and i can tell you that i nearly break my leg. I think i ve covered every single inch of the mall. From the convention hall, cinema to food courts downstair. There was some commotion somewhere and saw everyone snapping picture of this guy. He's cute but i ve no idea if he 's a celebrity or what.



By 6 pm, i was bored and started to wander outside, searching for a massage to cure my freaking tired feet. Yeap , i found one, just right at the corner.



By 8.30pm, im so hungry and tired. Sat on the staircase - having a puff and waiting for a call. I thought i will be save in your hand at 7 pm but i still wait.



I will not forget my 2 cans of beer and a sandwich , which turned out to be my dinner. What a miserable night, sipping beer in the dark at the roadside was indeed adventurous but its not in my plan.....

By 10.30 pm, im safely tucked away in the on the way home and get ready for the party. I cant believe i have waited for 'that' long. This is not me!

Lets stop for while. I m tired already and craving for a puff. Stay tune for foodie next.

Happy ...... at least for a while.

I woke up feeling estactic. Finally, i got to chat with you. Well, just casual chat but enough to cheer me up. It has been 2 months we didnt see each other but for me , i felt like eternity. Sigh. Yea, i miss you.

Although still lotsa questions left unanswered but i do cherish the chats/time because it will never come again. I will learn to expect less and go with the flow. Still , i want to try my best to make it happen. =)

Tired of waiting

Sometimes i dont even know what im waiting for.
I hope for a call ;
I hope for a proper conversation ;
I hope for an sms, maybe ;
I hope for some sign of 'heart'.
So thats what all Im waiting for ?

But im tired of waiting :
waiting for a call ;
waiting for a proper conversation ;
waiting for an sms, maybe ;
waiting for some sign of 'heart'.
Am really tired.

Can i ask if i do not want to wait ?

Light the dark

After ranting for a year in my another secret blog, i've decided to come out from the dark. That is because it is too dark - the secrets. It is full of rage, angst and tears. Now being so extremely farking free in the office, i actually re-read my entries. I'm so impressed and amazed - i write rather beautifully. =)

I wanted to delete the 'secret' but i do not have the heart to do so - because i speak from the heart. Well, just let it be for a while. If you ever stumble upon a blog that you think is sick, it might be my 'secret'.

Cant wait

I cant wait for the time to come.

im hoping - finger crossed - toes crossed - praying for the day to come soon. I wonder how would things will be if i pull the super stunt again. Will starve to death again , i guess.

Sigh , thats what happen in this fucked up place.

Shit!

Bomb timer

Everyday presented a new crisis.

Now i felt like having a bomb timer on me everyday i go to work. Any minutes any seconds it will blow up , tearing me in to pieces.

There are lotsa things that i dont understand; if its my problem or theirs. I dont speak the same England???

Weird !

A little thing called love ?

It all happened so innocently. We don't see each other very often. In fact, we don't see each other for like about 2 years. If you ask whether we keep in touch, i would say not really, we are like lost touch for a while. But if you count 'occasionally chats on MSN' is a way of keeping touch.

The funny thing is that i can't remember if i ever miss him. IF i did, i should have remember. All i know, he is somewhere out there, someone who will be there when Im there.

Im still wondering if that night doesn't happened, will it be the same and STAY the same ?

I don't know but i miss him.

Missing you

Actually
i dont want you to be here
because
i will surely miss you again when you left.



Actually
i dont want you to kiss me goodbye
because
it will be sad not to feel your lips again.



Actually
i dont want you to make me laugh
because
i dont know how to laugh when you are not by my side.




Actually
i missed you when you left
because
i miss you now more than ever.

shout out loud

Terribly stressed.
Whats the problem now?

Picture that made me smile.

Dream while you are awake. It might come true ! =)

its Joker, not Batman

The Dark Knight is now the talk of the town!

Im not surprised that its beating the record of other top movies. Just saw on internet, The Dark Knight already took in $300 million at the box office and its only 16 days!!!

Im fine with it eventho it beats Spiderman 3 - my favourite record. Because i 'HEART' Joker! Of all the villians, i love Joker most.

And most of all, this time Joker is Heath Ledger.

Definitely, Joker will bagged The Best Villian year 2008. *fingers crossed*

Still have not have the time to watch yet. Hopefully sometime next week.

I cant wait !

Paradise

It was like waking up from a good dream.

The beach, the sunshine, the beers, the people.

If it’s a dream, i wish i would never wake up.

a day with Denise

Baby is 1 month old!!!

gu chakkkk !!!!

i am nothing to you

I am nothing to you
So set me free

I am nothing to you
Just let me be

I am nothing to you
Even when we are apart

I am nothing to you
You crushed my heart

I am nothing to you
Just a thorn in your side

I am nothing to you
Just once your bride

I am nothing to you
You lie to me

I am nothing to you
Just let me be

I am nothing to you
So let us part

I am nothing to you
You've a cruel heart

I am nothing to you
Just let me go

I am nothing to you
You've only anger to show

I am nothing to you
Just let me be

I am nothing to you
So set me free

I am nothing to you
Nothing! Nothing! Nothing to you!

Baby!

See tiny fingers and tiny toes,
Bright baby eyes, cute baby nose;
Hear baby gurgles and baby sighs,
As I sing you, baby lullabies.

I'm now officially Aunty Tomato already as my sister-in-law gave birth to a very cute girl on the March 10th, 2008. This is the first baby in the family and of course, everyone were very excited and happy to the newborn.

We are still in the midst of deciding her name. Any suggestion?

Welcome to the family, baby!

another year.......

as you celebrate your day

i celebrate you

and

the beautiful friendship

we share.

Happy Birthday

Making the effort

I dont know if im a good judge of character, or im just paranoid. I just dont understand what's the point of being so calculative and manipulative?
If i decide i want to do a favor for you, i dont expect anything in return (In case you didnt know, that's what a favor is ; a deed that is carried out because of a persons own goodwill ).
At least in my book it is.
Fortunately, i do have friends who are unapologetic and unassuming. They dont apologize for making me doing things for them and they dont assume that i want or need anything in return for doing that favor. Likewise, i dont apologize or assume either.

Why cant my friends be like they are on television? I wish there are more Joey (as in Friends) in the world. Sad as it may be i just have to settle for the real-world friends that i have, even though i have to say ......

It's just so difficult to please everyone. Im tired of being nice all the time.

Happy Tree Friends

I saw someone wearing Happy Tree Friends t-shirt just now at the curve.

I really like that.
Do you know where i can get one, in KL?



in case you didnt know what is Happy tree friends -
they are extremely cute, cuddly animals whose daily adventures always end up goind horribly wrong.





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